somehow here is where i pour all my thoughts out...its great no one reads them...after the long dead blog...oh well...

you you you...so many people are so interested in you....sometimes i really donno what i am feeling...but i guess its you who i cant give it up..its you...

只能默默地爱着你。 我要我们两人的新记忆。 因为我们过去的记忆，一直在我心里。

我要爱你。但我知道这不是时候。我会等候时间成熟。我也不会惊讶， 如果当时候成熟， 你也有了信服。但是， 我知道，我爱你。我只想你开心，看着你美满信服， 我已心满意住了。 我将未来交在上帝的手中。

im just so messed up... but i know one thing for sure....you.'
sometimes it hurts.
sometimes its bitter sweet.
its just typical.
you.

"wait" is a big word. but i'll say it anyway...i'll wait.

grow old with you.. growing younger. if only that could happen...

Fantasy...or perhaps... not...?

thoughts that continue to make you think even harder....

thank God i was always here...
I was always here
was i?
when i read it...
i stopped..
and i shed a tear or two.
had a thought or two.
thoughts that brought me,
a year or two .
i wasn't..
i wasn't always here..
i left you for sin...
i wasn't there for
when i thought you needed someone
i left for mine
my own pleasures
how selfish i was
i thought for a while or two
you were always here
since the day we met
till today
you are here for me.
what have i done.
i love you
and i always have.
but i have just chosen the wrong path
the sinful path
the path which led me
to leave you
deep down
i knew i still loved you
but my desires
but my pleasures
these temporal pleasures
has taught me a lesson
has brought me a regret or two.
has brought me,
my greatest regret...

i ain't worthy.... ain't worthy a bit...

The nails that have brought life.... Jesus wants to say that He does not care about what you have done. He does not care about what you have become...He wants you to come Home...Repent....if you do not repent, the fault is YOURS!

this is the time of my life..where...probably...i really start to find out more about life...how can i be a better adult...as we grow into our adulthood...we try to figure out more answer on our own..that we make it our stand...so that we can lead a better life...its like....how to react the best to situations...sometimes when we're younger...we see adults handle different situations...sometimes...we like them...sometimes we dislike the way they handle...its their way...but again...it depends on the situation...well now its like...im trying to figure out a stable answer as MY stand, through so many varying situations....its more of what type of life i want to lead as a person...and i guess..and somehow at this point i know i want a life that first is pleasing to God...secondly...i want to see myself as reasonable and respected by others...and i want to live a life...that would allow me to handle things wisely...well..i guess the only one who can give this Wisdom to me is God...but i believe God gave me two adults, my parents, that they are the BEST suiting for ME... i see both my parents handling different situation...sometimes i think that my father is wise in this area...but not so in that...well similar for my mother...so somehow...its like...i wanna learn and adopt the way that i like as a solution to handle different situations..because soon, i''ll be faced with such situations...and i have to be able to adapt and to answer this situations with the right answer...

there isn't a textbook in life....but there are different lessons for each of us given daily by God. thats how we grow into people that God wants us to be...we are all different...there is no fixed solution to life.. there is only an Everlasting Provider.

what has been lost for so long...now its found, but it is ever so precious...so precious that...i am willing to do anything for it...apparently...i can't do anything...

you told me that memories will be memories.

i ain't worthy of our love..

In my dreams, i couldn't love you more.