Attachment at St. Andrews Community Hospital
Day 1( strokes and neurology)
it was a really enjoyable day today! stayed in the therapy room for one whole day and got to know some elders. from Mr Alex, he told me that "no matter how smart you are, you can never win illness". well this man is a very postitve man. he looks at his condition very positively! he says he is going to fight his stroke. he was a superintendent at SIA engineer, and i could tell he was very knowledgeable! 2 weeks ago, he got stroke. he was asked to leave SIA! so many other engaging conversations with them. a very dedicated physiotherapist, Joanne, she helped these folks learn to walk again. she was so dedicated that all the patients were so happy so go for exercise although some were tired. But she is a real good doctor! a very nice person too! Also met Joanne's assitant. He was really nice too. Although at first i thought he was a little cold. but when the day ended, we parted ways smiling and wishing each other well. He encouraged me to pursue my studies in medicine. we joked through the course of the day. in fact! joanne, her assistant and i joked throughout the day, but i did learn a few things. and most of all! today has ignited my passion to be a caring doctor. well, i was thinking, mobilisation is very important to all of us. treasure it while we can. looking at the way how they yearn to go home to be with their families, i was speechless, i just replied with a nod. feel sorry for them, but thankfully, there are doctors who are passionate, not all, but there are! these doctors who wants to help these patients. i strive to be not a doctor, but a passionate and caring doctor! Fight hard, dear friends!!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
extracted this from another blog.. thought it was a good song! Jesus loves me, this i know.
THE OLD PASTOR
While watching television on Sunday, I watched a church in Atlanta honoring one of its senior pastors who had been retired many years. He was 92 years old and I wondered why the church even bothered to ask the old gentleman to preach at that age.
After a warm introduction of this speaker, he rose from his high back chair and walked slowly, with great effort and a sliding gait to the podium. Without a note or written paper of any kind, he placed both hands on the pulpit to steady himself and then quietly and slowly he began to speak.
"When I was asked to come here today and talk to you, your pastor asked me to tell you what was the greatest lesson ever learned in my 50-odd years of preaching. I thought about it for a few days and boiled it down to just one thing that made the most difference in my life and sustained me through all my trials. The one thing that I could always rely on when tears and
heartbreak and pain and fear and sorrow paralyzed me, the only thing that would comfort was this verse:
"Jesus loves me this I know.
For the Bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong,
We are weak but He is strong.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
The Bible tells me so."
When he finished, the church was quiet. You actually could hear his footsteps as he shuffled back to his chair.
A pastor once stated, "I always noticed that it was the adults who chose the children's hymn 'Jesus Loves Me' during a hymn sing, and it was the adults who sang the loudest because I could see they knew it the best."
Here is a new "senior" version just for us who have white hair or no hair at all. For us over middle age, check out this newest version of Jesus Loves Me:
JESUS LOVES ME
Jesus loves me, this I know,
Though my hair is white as snow
Though my sight is growing dim,
Still He bids me trust in Him.
(CHORUS)
Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me, the Bible tells me so.
Though my steps are oh, so slow,
With my hand in His I'll go
On through life, let come what may,
He'll be there to lead the way.
(CHORUS)
When the nights are dark and long,
In my heart He puts a song.
Telling me in words so clear,
"Have no fear, for I am near."
(CHORUS)
When my work on earth is done,
And life's victories have been won.
He will take me home above,
Then I'll understand His love.
(CHORUS)
I love Jesus, does He know?
Have I ever told Him so?
Jesus loves to hear me say,
That I love Him every day.
(CHORUS)
--author unknown
THE OLD PASTOR
While watching television on Sunday, I watched a church in Atlanta honoring one of its senior pastors who had been retired many years. He was 92 years old and I wondered why the church even bothered to ask the old gentleman to preach at that age.
After a warm introduction of this speaker, he rose from his high back chair and walked slowly, with great effort and a sliding gait to the podium. Without a note or written paper of any kind, he placed both hands on the pulpit to steady himself and then quietly and slowly he began to speak.
"When I was asked to come here today and talk to you, your pastor asked me to tell you what was the greatest lesson ever learned in my 50-odd years of preaching. I thought about it for a few days and boiled it down to just one thing that made the most difference in my life and sustained me through all my trials. The one thing that I could always rely on when tears and
heartbreak and pain and fear and sorrow paralyzed me, the only thing that would comfort was this verse:
"Jesus loves me this I know.
For the Bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong,
We are weak but He is strong.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
The Bible tells me so."
When he finished, the church was quiet. You actually could hear his footsteps as he shuffled back to his chair.
A pastor once stated, "I always noticed that it was the adults who chose the children's hymn 'Jesus Loves Me' during a hymn sing, and it was the adults who sang the loudest because I could see they knew it the best."
Here is a new "senior" version just for us who have white hair or no hair at all. For us over middle age, check out this newest version of Jesus Loves Me:
JESUS LOVES ME
Jesus loves me, this I know,
Though my hair is white as snow
Though my sight is growing dim,
Still He bids me trust in Him.
(CHORUS)
Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me, the Bible tells me so.
Though my steps are oh, so slow,
With my hand in His I'll go
On through life, let come what may,
He'll be there to lead the way.
(CHORUS)
When the nights are dark and long,
In my heart He puts a song.
Telling me in words so clear,
"Have no fear, for I am near."
(CHORUS)
When my work on earth is done,
And life's victories have been won.
He will take me home above,
Then I'll understand His love.
(CHORUS)
I love Jesus, does He know?
Have I ever told Him so?
Jesus loves to hear me say,
That I love Him every day.
(CHORUS)
--author unknown
Sunday, October 24, 2010
"you never really know what God is to you until all you have is God"
After some reflection, i guess my four years in secondary school has taught me this. it was definitely a plan of God for me.still remembered clearly, the time i went into secondary one. i thought to myself,"i am a big boy now, no more a primary school kid." what i was looking for in my secondary school life was summarised in 1 word at that time. FREEDOM. indeed, i have attained the freedom that i want, so much so i started mixing around with the wrong company, often having problems with other people and acting as if the world belongs to you. i very much wanted to do all the things that a world wanted to do, smoke, pierce my tongue, pierce my ear to make myself more "hole-ly".when i started to get into the wrong company i continued hurling vulgarities, sometimes with a combo! i had a very close girlfriend whom i met in a piano class, she provided me with "back-ups" ,so to say. i called on them when i got into individual fights. i didn't really see them because they said that if one more time they find me then they would come down. apparantly, the next time didn't happen. i got into fights, threatening people who called me names, throwing chairs,almost picked up smoking. it was God's grace, i didn't go to an extent whereby i really pierced my tongue or ear and to smoke.Even so, i had many enemies, i didn't have friends. since growing up in a church, it had an impact in my life.God has been preserving me from this world, he kept me safe. my turning point was at the end of sec one, when i was touched by my parent's love and also my conscience. i asked myself if this was the type of life i really wanted. and if my worldly parents loved me this much, how much more would my Creator, my Heavenly Father love me?
pslam 139:13 "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb."
i decided for a change.
i attended YF and that was when i was encouraged to change with aid of many brothers and sisters. encouragements, time and effort. these are all the angels God placed in my life to guide me.the theme of my first YF camp was surrounding "how to be salt and light for the world." i could slowly see the love of God, His guidance in my life. Secondary two was a year of change, the ultimate turning point in my life. i stopped my vulgarities. many people often say it is hard to abstain, but when i prayed and determined, i did it almost immediately. thank God! i started to lose friends, since i did not really fit in, but i treasured my brothers and sisters in church and God in my life. i started to feel a little bit lonely at the end of sec 2. soon, in sec 3, i found myself in a state whereby i become close to called lonely. i had people who betrayed my trust. i was often encouraged by brothers and sisters that we should set apart for God and even though we face trials, persevere. it was a really tough time,it only got worse in sec 4. like i said, i didn't have friends, but i would say, i had many many companions. i realised the big difference in friends and companions. in sec 3 and sec 4, i had soon began to feel lonely and ever since i have always relied on God. as time goes by, lessons after lessons, i have learnt from the teachings of God in my everyday life.
up till the day i graduated from my secondary school, i would say i hated my school life. but on the contrary, i thank God for it. through my lonliness, i've started to see God in my life. whenever i am lonely i would think of God. indeed, what a friend we have in Jesus. He was there by my side in my everyday life, He walks with me, He talks to me, even through my deepest days. even when sometimes i wanted to give life up, He was there.
DEUT 31:6 " ....He will never leave you nor forsake you"
i believed.
after four years, i have come to realise, that God had a lesson for me to learn. besides the small lessons through the way, on the big picture, He wanted me to learn to Rely on Him and He wanted to be part of my life. He knocks on my heart's door, never did He leave. until i opened and to let Him in. i found Joy that i never could find. after graduation, i have seen that God is part of my life already and everyday, i am ready to entrust matters unto His hand. for He has a plan, a plan to prosper me, and not to harm me. God means so much to me today, because i have been through the darkest days, sin, loneliness, heartbreaks. He was there. i didn't have much support of Humans, i didn't feel appreciated by people, people didn't understand me.sometimes even brothers and sisters, parents, may not even understand you, how you feel, but He was there. i was wronged, i hated being wronged. but God was there, there was hope for justice since God was Just! i lead a miserable life physically for 4 long years. spiritually, God was with me. He had hold onto my hand, brought me through it all. He answered my prayers. today, God means so much to me, God is my rock, my salvation whom i take refuge in. i place my trust in Him, i have faith in Him. i was delievered. He forgave my sins, the sins that was so detestable in His eyes, the sin that brought man away from the Holy God. not only did he forgive me, He has lead me out of it, He has protected me, preserved me, up till today. 4 years was worth while, knowing Him a little better.
when all i had was Him, i know today how much He means to me. what about you?
After some reflection, i guess my four years in secondary school has taught me this. it was definitely a plan of God for me.still remembered clearly, the time i went into secondary one. i thought to myself,"i am a big boy now, no more a primary school kid." what i was looking for in my secondary school life was summarised in 1 word at that time. FREEDOM. indeed, i have attained the freedom that i want, so much so i started mixing around with the wrong company, often having problems with other people and acting as if the world belongs to you. i very much wanted to do all the things that a world wanted to do, smoke, pierce my tongue, pierce my ear to make myself more "hole-ly".when i started to get into the wrong company i continued hurling vulgarities, sometimes with a combo! i had a very close girlfriend whom i met in a piano class, she provided me with "back-ups" ,so to say. i called on them when i got into individual fights. i didn't really see them because they said that if one more time they find me then they would come down. apparantly, the next time didn't happen. i got into fights, threatening people who called me names, throwing chairs,almost picked up smoking. it was God's grace, i didn't go to an extent whereby i really pierced my tongue or ear and to smoke.Even so, i had many enemies, i didn't have friends. since growing up in a church, it had an impact in my life.God has been preserving me from this world, he kept me safe. my turning point was at the end of sec one, when i was touched by my parent's love and also my conscience. i asked myself if this was the type of life i really wanted. and if my worldly parents loved me this much, how much more would my Creator, my Heavenly Father love me?
pslam 139:13 "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb."
i decided for a change.
i attended YF and that was when i was encouraged to change with aid of many brothers and sisters. encouragements, time and effort. these are all the angels God placed in my life to guide me.the theme of my first YF camp was surrounding "how to be salt and light for the world." i could slowly see the love of God, His guidance in my life. Secondary two was a year of change, the ultimate turning point in my life. i stopped my vulgarities. many people often say it is hard to abstain, but when i prayed and determined, i did it almost immediately. thank God! i started to lose friends, since i did not really fit in, but i treasured my brothers and sisters in church and God in my life. i started to feel a little bit lonely at the end of sec 2. soon, in sec 3, i found myself in a state whereby i become close to called lonely. i had people who betrayed my trust. i was often encouraged by brothers and sisters that we should set apart for God and even though we face trials, persevere. it was a really tough time,it only got worse in sec 4. like i said, i didn't have friends, but i would say, i had many many companions. i realised the big difference in friends and companions. in sec 3 and sec 4, i had soon began to feel lonely and ever since i have always relied on God. as time goes by, lessons after lessons, i have learnt from the teachings of God in my everyday life.
up till the day i graduated from my secondary school, i would say i hated my school life. but on the contrary, i thank God for it. through my lonliness, i've started to see God in my life. whenever i am lonely i would think of God. indeed, what a friend we have in Jesus. He was there by my side in my everyday life, He walks with me, He talks to me, even through my deepest days. even when sometimes i wanted to give life up, He was there.
DEUT 31:6 " ....He will never leave you nor forsake you"
i believed.
after four years, i have come to realise, that God had a lesson for me to learn. besides the small lessons through the way, on the big picture, He wanted me to learn to Rely on Him and He wanted to be part of my life. He knocks on my heart's door, never did He leave. until i opened and to let Him in. i found Joy that i never could find. after graduation, i have seen that God is part of my life already and everyday, i am ready to entrust matters unto His hand. for He has a plan, a plan to prosper me, and not to harm me. God means so much to me today, because i have been through the darkest days, sin, loneliness, heartbreaks. He was there. i didn't have much support of Humans, i didn't feel appreciated by people, people didn't understand me.sometimes even brothers and sisters, parents, may not even understand you, how you feel, but He was there. i was wronged, i hated being wronged. but God was there, there was hope for justice since God was Just! i lead a miserable life physically for 4 long years. spiritually, God was with me. He had hold onto my hand, brought me through it all. He answered my prayers. today, God means so much to me, God is my rock, my salvation whom i take refuge in. i place my trust in Him, i have faith in Him. i was delievered. He forgave my sins, the sins that was so detestable in His eyes, the sin that brought man away from the Holy God. not only did he forgive me, He has lead me out of it, He has protected me, preserved me, up till today. 4 years was worth while, knowing Him a little better.
when all i had was Him, i know today how much He means to me. what about you?
Friday, October 15, 2010
times like this, i feel like im crushed...
feel stressed from all that studying, though i know its just another week to my O levels, but its just so tiring. so many things on my mind.
a constantly working mind...
sometimes there are just little or even none who really understands what's really going under you, that fictatious smile, laughter.
only to find your heart frowning deeply...
who is there to understand me?
God.
feel stressed from all that studying, though i know its just another week to my O levels, but its just so tiring. so many things on my mind.
a constantly working mind...
sometimes there are just little or even none who really understands what's really going under you, that fictatious smile, laughter.
only to find your heart frowning deeply...
who is there to understand me?
God.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
after i read the chat logs, it is different this time, i didn't feel as if i was more drawn to you. but instead, i feel that it was time i let go. i let you go meaning you let me go. remember that? well as i start to grow older, i start to see things in a different perspective.. i start to understnad what you said to me 2 years ago...though its all over...i cherish those pretty and loving moments..its time i let go...10/10/10...never expected that it would be the date..sigh...life's been tough...but through God's grace, i'm still alive...well..i'm starting to get my thoughts sorted out... falling out of my dream already! another year has passed.... perhaps a turn for the new turn, the new me.. but in my heart. i once loved you so badly. a pretty scar that i will treasure...it may not be God's will for us...but you're still my Sister in Christ! a new me..
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
searching through my old documents in dad's hard drive... i thought after losing my thumbdrive, it meant that i lost the last piece of memory that Jess left behind? was it really the last? somehow i wish it isn't...it so late at night...suppose to be sleeping by now..but just keep on thinking. i read through the chat logs... i realised i truly loved her deeply for who she is...but as time passes on and on again...it suddenly felt so cold... this quietness is deafening, this coldness is burning me... its just bitter sweet to relieve the beautiful memories we had created. was it a mistake to YOU that we both got close? what happened? why the coldness? was it because of my foolish decision. the decision that totally screw my life upside down...why? WHY? i cannot understand why. i feel very angry with myself today...that decision destroyed a r/s that was so very precious to me. and it led me to sin. WHY? i really cannot get it. why did i make such a foolish decision. to leave GOD, to leave Her, to even put aside my values for stupid worldly desires.. i've never stopped loving her. i've never. but i just did something that i am really sorry for..i feel so bitter tonight. somehow i remebered our memories we had, i am waiting for her dream to really come true. wonder if she even remembers. or was it a mistake? a mistake she did not want to repeat, so that explains the coldness...
Girl, you might have changed in certain ways, but i know who you are, even how much you change, i know that the real you is still inside you somewhere.... we have distant...and this distant is pressing against me...even through the coldness of your eyes and speech, i know you are still you...you are the one i was infactuated with, and you were the one that i fell in love with...until now, i've done you so much wrong...i'm sorry. one thing that you really could do, is to trust me again. trust me just this last time. just trust me that i love you...never was there a day that i've never thought of you.
tonight is just 2 weeks and 6 days to my o lvls... im trying hard to concentrate. i will be doing well. for the Lord will strengthen me.. i pray. when i look back at this blog, i want to know that i've given my best for my o lvls. and leaving no stone unturn. for i am Strengthened by the creator of this world. even though things happen, the Lord delievers me. Dear Lord, as i commit my relationship to you. MAY YOUR WILL BE DONE. AMEN.
Girl, you might have changed in certain ways, but i know who you are, even how much you change, i know that the real you is still inside you somewhere.... we have distant...and this distant is pressing against me...even through the coldness of your eyes and speech, i know you are still you...you are the one i was infactuated with, and you were the one that i fell in love with...until now, i've done you so much wrong...i'm sorry. one thing that you really could do, is to trust me again. trust me just this last time. just trust me that i love you...never was there a day that i've never thought of you.
tonight is just 2 weeks and 6 days to my o lvls... im trying hard to concentrate. i will be doing well. for the Lord will strengthen me.. i pray. when i look back at this blog, i want to know that i've given my best for my o lvls. and leaving no stone unturn. for i am Strengthened by the creator of this world. even though things happen, the Lord delievers me. Dear Lord, as i commit my relationship to you. MAY YOUR WILL BE DONE. AMEN.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
another great day...having faith...being faithful in my faith...absorbed so much, im motivated to go out there tomorrow back to school, stronger than ever, studying harder than ever, and glorifying God more than ever! i know i am going to face disappointments, but i know , O Lord, You will guide me! You will deliever me... for You are my refuge, and never will You leave me. Thanks be to God!
hmmm...sometimes we procrastinate so much, we have already lost a dear brother or a sister.. i haven't done my part as a group member, nor a member of caring team...i guess i've learnt my lesson!
dear Leslie! im sorry for neglecting you sometimes! man! to think what i've done i am guilty! hope you continue out there striving for the Lord yeah!i'll pray for you!
did some reflections on the way home today....my flaws that i see myself in, that i have to change. they are, to be
HUMBLE
TO SERVE GOD WITH NO NEEDS OF RECOGNITION
CARE AND LOVE FOR ALL
NOT CHOOSING WHO TO LOVE.
THE WAY I WALK
TO HAVE FAITH
TO BE FAITHFUL TO GOD
ACCEPT PEOPLE FOR WHO THEY ARE
so many more but...everyday we're sanctified...through stregthening from God, i will be able to change to become an onward Christian Soldier. shining for God!
-SG!
hmmm...sometimes we procrastinate so much, we have already lost a dear brother or a sister.. i haven't done my part as a group member, nor a member of caring team...i guess i've learnt my lesson!
dear Leslie! im sorry for neglecting you sometimes! man! to think what i've done i am guilty! hope you continue out there striving for the Lord yeah!i'll pray for you!
did some reflections on the way home today....my flaws that i see myself in, that i have to change. they are, to be
HUMBLE
TO SERVE GOD WITH NO NEEDS OF RECOGNITION
CARE AND LOVE FOR ALL
NOT CHOOSING WHO TO LOVE.
THE WAY I WALK
TO HAVE FAITH
TO BE FAITHFUL TO GOD
ACCEPT PEOPLE FOR WHO THEY ARE
so many more but...everyday we're sanctified...through stregthening from God, i will be able to change to become an onward Christian Soldier. shining for God!
-SG!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
i think im such an annoyance ! not only do i annoy others, i annoy myself sometimes...hmmm...if im such an annoyance, why should i be here...? hmmm...was just thinking about it last night...slept around 3 am thinking! well i figured that this blog would keep track of my important thoughts and on day, when i look bakc, i know what my thoughts are.. oh wells...and one day, if i never make it through a night or day, someone would eventually find this blog, and read all my post...or...maybe not...since im such an annoyance...hargh! somethings wrong with me! oh well
if i nvr made it to see a sunset or a sunrise one day...just know that i'll be in a better place...waiting for all my beloved ones there...i really hope so...hmmm... anyway! i shall treasure all sunrise and sun sets from now!! my aim is to see 99 sunsets/sunrise before i leave....well...yes! its true i wont be counting it! but 99? why 99? cause the day i see a sunset/sunrise with her, strawberry girl, thats my hundreth. oh well...it may never come true, or it may....nobody knows!God knows! Godbless ya'll!
love,
me
if i nvr made it to see a sunset or a sunrise one day...just know that i'll be in a better place...waiting for all my beloved ones there...i really hope so...hmmm... anyway! i shall treasure all sunrise and sun sets from now!! my aim is to see 99 sunsets/sunrise before i leave....well...yes! its true i wont be counting it! but 99? why 99? cause the day i see a sunset/sunrise with her, strawberry girl, thats my hundreth. oh well...it may never come true, or it may....nobody knows!God knows! Godbless ya'll!
love,
me
Thursday, June 24, 2010
somehow, i feel im here again at another crossroad. i guess i haven't really been what i really am at ubin. just dislike even my behaviour at times, donno why am i doing things like that and to serve what purpose. its just a change of mood, perhaps the hormones. last night at ubin, i suddenly felt depressed. to that extend, i dno why...was happy for the whole day, then suddenly like depressed, weird hormonal mood changes. hah.. doubt it was because i was tired...but more of...sadness i guess...went for a walk, felt better.. i think the night atmosphere is really good to soothe the mind i guess... hmmm....
do i really love you that much?
somehow, i think i really love her to a certain extend that i am able to at the current point and situation. i shall not commit so soon, however, what i know is that, i would wait for you, and persevere through. whether we become together or not, i know full well, i love you and no regrets for my effort and my time spent.
love!
24/6/2010(incase blogger gets the date wrong, to look back and remember what i've said, not to anyone, but to myself):)
do i really love you that much?
somehow, i think i really love her to a certain extend that i am able to at the current point and situation. i shall not commit so soon, however, what i know is that, i would wait for you, and persevere through. whether we become together or not, i know full well, i love you and no regrets for my effort and my time spent.
love!
24/6/2010(incase blogger gets the date wrong, to look back and remember what i've said, not to anyone, but to myself):)
Friday, June 18, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Sunday, June 6, 2010
life has been a screw up sometime recently...only to find thoughts in my mind becoming more depressing. Lloyd says its because i am growing up.. puberty.haha~ always joking around that man! hah...
somehow, i feel i may not be able to make it through O levels...got to study harder....
God will take care of the next day..continually remind myself that....how impatience ruin me the last time....its not going to happen ever again....trust in God, and His will. i believe..His will would be shown! i will wait...even if it means i'll never get to your heart, i'll wait and obey God's will.
somehow, i feel i may not be able to make it through O levels...got to study harder....
God will take care of the next day..continually remind myself that....how impatience ruin me the last time....its not going to happen ever again....trust in God, and His will. i believe..His will would be shown! i will wait...even if it means i'll never get to your heart, i'll wait and obey God's will.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
somehow here is where i pour all my thoughts out...its great no one reads them...after the long dead blog...oh well...
you you you...so many people are so interested in you....sometimes i really donno what i am feeling...but i guess its you who i cant give it up..its you...
只能默默地爱着你。 我要我们两人的新记忆。 因为我们过去的记忆，一直在我心里。
我要爱你。但我知道这不是时候。我会等候时间成熟。我也不会惊讶， 如果当时候成熟， 你也有了信服。但是， 我知道，我爱你。我只想你开心，看着你美满信服， 我已心满意住了。 我将未来交在上帝的手中。
you you you...so many people are so interested in you....sometimes i really donno what i am feeling...but i guess its you who i cant give it up..its you...
只能默默地爱着你。 我要我们两人的新记忆。 因为我们过去的记忆，一直在我心里。
我要爱你。但我知道这不是时候。我会等候时间成熟。我也不会惊讶， 如果当时候成熟， 你也有了信服。但是， 我知道，我爱你。我只想你开心，看着你美满信服， 我已心满意住了。 我将未来交在上帝的手中。
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
thank God i was always here...
I was always here
was i?
when i read it...
i stopped..
and i shed a tear or two.
had a thought or two.
thoughts that brought me,
a year or two .
i wasn't..
i wasn't always here..
i left you for sin...
i wasn't there for
when i thought you needed someone
i left for mine
my own pleasures
how selfish i was
i thought for a while or two
you were always here
since the day we met
till today
you are here for me.
what have i done.
i love you
and i always have.
but i have just chosen the wrong path
the sinful path
the path which led me
to leave you
deep down
i knew i still loved you
but my desires
but my pleasures
these temporal pleasures
has taught me a lesson
has brought me a regret or two.
has brought me,
my greatest regret...
i ain't worthy.... ain't worthy a bit...
I was always here
was i?
when i read it...
i stopped..
and i shed a tear or two.
had a thought or two.
thoughts that brought me,
a year or two .
i wasn't..
i wasn't always here..
i left you for sin...
i wasn't there for
when i thought you needed someone
i left for mine
my own pleasures
how selfish i was
i thought for a while or two
you were always here
since the day we met
till today
you are here for me.
what have i done.
i love you
and i always have.
but i have just chosen the wrong path
the sinful path
the path which led me
to leave you
deep down
i knew i still loved you
but my desires
but my pleasures
these temporal pleasures
has taught me a lesson
has brought me a regret or two.
has brought me,
my greatest regret...
i ain't worthy.... ain't worthy a bit...
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
this is the time of my life..where...probably...i really start to find out more about life...how can i be a better adult...as we grow into our adulthood...we try to figure out more answer on our own..that we make it our stand...so that we can lead a better life...its like....how to react the best to situations...sometimes when we're younger...we see adults handle different situations...sometimes...we like them...sometimes we dislike the way they handle...its their way...but again...it depends on the situation...well now its like...im trying to figure out a stable answer as MY stand, through so many varying situations....its more of what type of life i want to lead as a person...and i guess..and somehow at this point i know i want a life that first is pleasing to God...secondly...i want to see myself as reasonable and respected by others...and i want to live a life...that would allow me to handle things wisely...well..i guess the only one who can give this Wisdom to me is God...but i believe God gave me two adults, my parents, that they are the BEST suiting for ME... i see both my parents handling different situation...sometimes i think that my father is wise in this area...but not so in that...well similar for my mother...so somehow...its like...i wanna learn and adopt the way that i like as a solution to handle different situations..because soon, i''ll be faced with such situations...and i have to be able to adapt and to answer this situations with the right answer...
there isn't a textbook in life....but there are different lessons for each of us given daily by God. thats how we grow into people that God wants us to be...we are all different...there is no fixed solution to life.. there is only an Everlasting Provider.
there isn't a textbook in life....but there are different lessons for each of us given daily by God. thats how we grow into people that God wants us to be...we are all different...there is no fixed solution to life.. there is only an Everlasting Provider.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
what a day....CWO for today....after the flour incident...=.=...Cwo gonna carry on for like the rest of the week...and next week...sian...next week is music midyears!!!=(...duet havent master yet...sians...sucks....next week is also CCA step down....how sad...oh well..
stress...hmm...using so much stuff, includes being retarded to cover up the stress in me...its so tiring...energy draining....prepare for tuition now...
its all over when the bell rings...
stress...hmm...using so much stuff, includes being retarded to cover up the stress in me...its so tiring...energy draining....prepare for tuition now...
its all over when the bell rings...
Friday, April 9, 2010
what a day!woke up at 615 when there is no school, my maid woke me up wrongly. cant go back to sleep. so decided to do english compo. then went bowling with sherman and celeste. met xena and nessa ltr for lunch...hmmm...speech day, nothing much, just the same old thing, i do it all, but still....haiii!!!feeling that life in band really sucks, cause its like...unfair....damn....hai....from the french horn, to the red sash...it was long over anyway...but somehow, its so...irritating...gahhh!.. thanks jodie and amanda for supporting me though...best jr.s ever...haha!...speech day, Dr Ong came back..my goodness, i totally almost cried when he shouted crestians 3 times and we respond...how much i miss him in our school!!!!!wow..i truly really miss him...i never EVER regret feeling sad on the last day with him in our school....oh wells....just have to live with the new principal.. i got into deep shit with her anyway...haix... pray hard that i dont get punish very severly? like suspension..?hrmmms...
tml school at 8 am...sian...
tml school at 8 am...sian...
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
well...sometimes its good to start afresh....
through the busy times i am having, its just so tiring. sometimes i just feel i am in a depression.. i don't know why...i am so tired...just can't seem to get enough rest...
on my music shuffle, the song "everything in its time" by corrine may started playing, i listened hard to the lyrics....it speaks so much...just brought back some memories...a gust of them..and they're gonna stay...memories are for memories...bad memories are shreaded and they go away...but good memories are just in the midst of the mind..
through the busy times i am having, its just so tiring. sometimes i just feel i am in a depression.. i don't know why...i am so tired...just can't seem to get enough rest...
on my music shuffle, the song "everything in its time" by corrine may started playing, i listened hard to the lyrics....it speaks so much...just brought back some memories...a gust of them..and they're gonna stay...memories are for memories...bad memories are shreaded and they go away...but good memories are just in the midst of the mind..
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